Anonymous asked: honestly, i didn't mean that in a bad way. it's just... i miss the crazy, silly alex that i knew... i feel like you've become a lot more detached... i'm sorry.

i’m still silly and crazy (: it’s just that, i don’t get a lot of time on the web around school and friends these days, trust me, i hate it. in all honesty, i feel like a lot of the people i know on the web don’t want to talk to me anymore. i have people that i used to be so close to that i can’t hold a conversation with anymore.

and, i realize i’m more emotionally distant these days. having your heart ripped out and tangoed on can do that to a person. having a year and a half of therapy flushed has that effect.

i’m working my way back to where i used to be. but i’m trying to balance my online and real life. it’s not as easy as it sounds.